Watching the news this morning, they talked about a doctor being brought to Nebraska with Ebola. My first thought was “lucky guy. If I drive through Nebraska, can I catch it?”
When the Malaysian Airline’s flight went down, I wished I was on the plane. Same with the shot down one.
I want to find a job overseas to help others and do good, but also cause secretly I hope to catch some lethal disease and die. I justify this with cremation would be cheaper in Asia than in the US.
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None of this is good. I know those kind of thoughts well. Medication has made a huge difference for me. I think it might have saved my life. I hope you can find a way out of this dark time.
I agree with the comment above, and can second that medication makes a huge difference, and has probably saved my life also. Is there someone you’re speaking to about your thoughts?
Wishing you the best 🙂
Thanks. I am feeling better. I started 5HTP and it seems to be helping.
I’m pleased to hear it. Keep on keeping on 🙂