Slipped

It has taken me a few days to admit this to anyone. But I slipped last week while on vacation. Then again a few days later. One mojito turned to 6 beers, a rum and coke, and a daiquiri. (I was always a rum girl.) I am not gonna get into the details right now but I made more mistakes, like lost a favorite dress and sex with a stranger.  (There goes that abstinence too.)

I have been going to 1 or 2 meetings a day since I have been back. I got a number of a sponsor and I have been texting her. I just got another number after hearing a woman speak tonight. I am going away next week and already plan to attend meetings while gone. I am going to read the Big Book. I am going to work the steps finally. AA is not the only way but hopefully it will be the way I need. May 26, 2015 is my new sobreity date.

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15 thoughts on “Slipped

  1. Support is #1 for me in any life change I’ve ever made. Sobriety was no exception. There’s no wrong way to get sober. Do what works for you.

    It’s great to read your words, even I feel my heaviness lift as I read your truth. There is something so free about saying it the way it is and realizing we are still loved. We aren’t our actions. Good for you for jumping back into your journey.

    xox lisa

  2. It feels wrong to ‘like’ a post about slipping but it seems you have a good plan and a great attitude. See it for what it is, one small step back when you have come so far and learnt so much. Now back on that bike… 🙂

  3. We all make mistakes, but not everyone can admit when they do! Good for you, recognizing that there is more work to do…best of luck!

  4. I’m glad you made it back. You sound like you know what to do and are doing it. Progress not perfection. Thank God for that! The Steps are an important part my recovery, as is support and finding a Higher Power. Maybe these things will work for you. Keep connected and I hope you find a great sponsor.

  5. I’m glad you made it back. It sounds like you know what to do and are doing it. Progress not perfection, right? (I used to think all those slogans were corny and overused but they really are meaningful to me now.) The Steps are an important part of my recovery, as is the support and finding a Higher Power. Maybe these things will work for you. Good luck on your journey and I hope you find a great sponsor.

  6. I am so sorry about your slip. I had a slip too and my new date is 5/31/2015. Also starting the steps all over again! You’ve come so far and have learned a lot. Just remember this absolutely does not undo how far you have come.

  7. Oops, I think my whole comment got deleted. Anyway, I am also starting again after a slip (with weed). 5/31/2015. GAHHHH. Lots of tears and shame but I can genuinely say I am recharged and ready to work the steps, too:) This hasn’t undone all of your progress-don’t forget! And good luck.

  8. Good luck to BOTH of you on getting back. You’ve both inspired me to get back to work. Though I have a little over four years sober I have only gotten to Step Six. I can be kind of lazy, (my sponsor says I am fearful also), and have a tendency to rest on my laurels. This combination can eventually do me in, so I need to get back into action reading the Big Book and working the Steps. Thank you two for sharing and for giving me the push I need. LET’S DO THIS!

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  10. I’ve been reading your blog for a while and it’s been amazing following your journey. I’m in awe of how reflective you are, your honesty and the way you face difficulties and disappointments head on. I had a question for you, and it’s okay if you don’t want to answer, but–what happened? I know you were struggling, but do you think that there was something specific that ‘pushed’ you into slipping? I hope this is okay to ask–I’m just trying to understand.

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