Stronger but not invincible

Tonight I went out to dinner alone. It was a nice Indian restaurant.  I ordered my food and continued reading my book Get Sober Stay Sober by Cynthia Perkins. The restaurant was pretty empty on this cold night. There were only two other tables occupied with a couple each. The table closest to me interrupted my reading. They wanted to know if I wanted to finish off their bottle of wine. It looked like a full glass-worth. For free. I told them no thank you. They assured me it was good. I told them I don’t drink alcohol. The man said “neither do I” and they both laughed.

It was very easy for me to turn down that bottle. I felt so proud. I thought of how much stronger I have gotten with saying no to alcohol over the past 10 months.

But I would be lying if I said I didn’t mourn my move. I think I will always wish I could drink. Just like a prisoner sentenced to life in jail wishes for freedom.

At least I have my freedom. And my life.

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6 thoughts on “Stronger but not invincible

  1. Well done! I know what you mean about it not being easy; part of me really does want a drink. I just know it would never be 1. Good luck saying ‘no’ so soda and junk food; I am struggling with that too, replacing alcohol with sugar was acceptable in the early days but not a good long term plan! 🙂

  2. Well done. Just beware the celebratory feeling when you reach your goal.
    Yeah, freebies hold an allure like no other, that’s why I get tense if going to the bottle shop for gift wine; there’s always two for $25 or six for -. Such a bargain!
    I’m almost 5 months alcohol free. My weight is stable, sleep better and health better. But I still want it sometimes. Like today. Felt tired, everyone talking about the ‘drinks’ next Saturday. Don’t think I’ll go.

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