I am in a new city. New things to see. It is a new day. And I feel better than my last post.
I also slept better.
I was staying in a hostel for two nights. And while I love the atmosphere in hostels, maybe I am getting too old for sleeping in dorm rooms. It was not as if many of the other young travelers were trying to chat with me. (Even though I could probably give them a lot of travel advice about other parts of the world! ) I booked a hotel for my two nights in this city because the hostels were all up a hill and I have a very heavy bag. This hotel is right next to the train station. I went to sleep, did not set the alarm, and woke up at 8 am feeling wonderful!
I was listening to music on my iPod as I got ready. Some Tibetan Buddhist prayers came on. I downloaded them after my trip to Nepal last year. I listened to the chant “om mani padme hum.” I really need to make a blog post one day devoted to that prayer. It basically means “jewel in the lotus” and represents that we can overcome anything. (At least that is what I take from it.) But lotuses are beautiful flowers that can grow out of mud and, literally, shit. They show that something wonderful can come from the worst. A jewel in the lotus is the shine that develops from that beauty.
So that chant came on and made me smile. It also made me think of a Buddhist quote I saw on a recovery page on Facebook last night. “Nothing is permanent.” Including my addiction. Including my sadness.
Mistake 196- I was really close friends with a gay guy. He had an old military friend visiting him. His friend was very hot. My friend told me not to hit on his hot friend. But we went to an afterhours club. My gay friend had to leave but his hot friend insisted on staying. I got too drunk to drive so the hot guy offered to drive my car for me. We ended up having sex in the car in the parking lot before he drove me home.
We stayed in touch and he even came to visit me once. But we kept it a secret. Our gay friend was mad when he found out. He said I betrayed him. I am not sure if he was jealous or why he was so upset. But either reason, a friend should not do that to a friend.