90 Days Sober!

I am 90 days sober! Yea!

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But I am not chasing for a chip this time like I did for 30 days. I might go to a meeting before work to see if I will get one, but I do not want to deal with the disappointment when they tell me they only give chips to home group members or people with sponsors. (But there are no rules for AA? Just a desire to stop drinking? Yea right. Do what they suggest or you are not worthy of a sobriety chip.)

I am going away next weekend to visit some friends.ย  I will have all Friday to myself while they work. It is the same area where I first tried AA in 2002 and then again in 2007. I will go to meetings there to get a chip.

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I feel good. Physically and mentally. I keep thinking of all the possibilities before me without booze in my life. Now can I survive the next 90 without soda?

Mistake # 90- I was traveling Australia and got very drunk at a bar in Airlie Beach. There was a “lagoon” to swim in because the ocean was too dangerous. The lagoon was more of a very large pool. I met a guy in the bar and we decided to go for a swim.

We thought skinny dipping was a good idea. This guy and I were making out in the pool, in the nude, and it started to rain. We ran out of the lagoon and searched for where we stripped off our clothes. We found them sitting in the same pile we left them. My purse with my camera, wallet and passport was still there. But my shirt and bra were missing.

I put on my underwear and shorts. It was pouring rain and drunk me ran around, trying to cover my boobs with my hands, and search the beach for my top. I even went up to the lifeguard to ask for lost and found. He laughed at me. He said it sounds like some kids played a prank.

The guy I was with gave me his shirt to cover up and we went back to his hotel. I kept thinking how stupid and lucky I was that only my shirt and bra were missing. Thank god my purse did not get stolen. I was so reckless. And I was also happy my purse had a plastic-like lining so my stuff did not get wet and ruined.

I also remember giving that guy a fake identity. A fake name and where I was from. I guess I either knew I would never talk to him again or I was so ashamed of my behavior while drunk.

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27 thoughts on “90 Days Sober!

  1. Congrats on 90!! Hey – I have never heard of that “home group members and those with sponsors only” nonsense. And it’s nonsense. 90 days is 90 days. Sponsor or no sponsor. Home group or no home group. Sounds like a bit judgemental, to me. Maybe it’s that group in particular or an area thing? (Did that actually happen to you?)

    Anyway, congrats again!

    And as for the mistake #90 – yeah, that’s the kind of silliness and potential ugly stuff we got into. I lost more cellphones, keys, money, etc. while drunk than anything else. And some uglier stuff happened too. Ugh.

    Have a wonderful day!

    Paul

    • No it didnt happen to me. But when I was trying to get my 30 day chip, I was going to daily meetings in different places, including beginner’s meetings, and the only chips I saw given it were for 90 days and yearly anniversaries. And the 90 was always given by a sponsor who gave a speech how the person has struggled and changed the past 3 months and them the recipient would give a speech. I never heard the offer of even a white chip. I think it is an area thing.

      The place I am going next weekend was where I got my first white chip and 30 day and I have one either 45 or 60 days from 7 years ago. I might cheat and try to go to two meetings so I can get a 60 and 90. Hee hee

      There is a few meetings I like around here. If I had more time and not working 48-60 hours a week, I would go more. I don’t want to get up early before work tonight just to be disappointed by no chip. But I feel very good and like I don’t NEED a chip today. But I do want one to keep in my wallet.

      In truth, I have been beyond lucky when it comes to being drunk and my passport.

  2. Well done on 90 days! That’s so silly about the chip- what a strange rule! Definitely go and seek one out- I love having mine in my purse to remind me what I’d be giving up if I drank :0)

  3. Congratulations! I hope you know and are proud of how incredibly strong and brave you are. I just found your blog and binge read it so now I am fully up to date. I want Oprah to belt out “you’re sober!!!!!” and give you that new car ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Thanks. I went to another meeting the day after I got my 90 to sneak and get a 60, but that meeting have out 30, 90, 6 month, 9 month, and then yearly. I think meetings or areas are all different.

  4. Congratulations on reaching 90days. I don’t remember what day I had 90 days sober. I remember around the time I stopped drinking. I remember spending three days in bed with the shakes, sweating, and feeling miserable. Telling myself I could do it this time. I had been drinking all day for several days, then one night I was yelling and cursing at the neighborhood kids while standing in the middle of the street. I remember getting into my car driving to the liquor store to get more vodka, because I had just made a fool of myself and needed to stop thinking about what I had just done. That was my bottom.

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